Friday, April 30, 2010


I have Victoria Secret's no lines underwear on. Sure, should be great, but I think they recommended a size too big. I sit down and it sort of balloons out (I'm wearing a knit dress, so it can balloon). I am quite annoyed every time I move.

At least I don't have on a thong with a clingy dress, as the young lass down the hall had earlier this week. Shouldn't it be required that you look at the back of yourself when you get dressed in the morning? She's not really the type that wants to invite attention, so it likely was a mistake. One that all the men appreciated, I think?

BTW, the title of a former post should have been Cat eating cake with no bra. Forgot to update the counter.

Thursday, April 29, 2010


I'm not sure why I thought of this this morning, OH, now I know. The project leaders for one project I work with are sending me a gift that only *I* can use. So, what, a monogrammed towel? Then I remembered the time back in middle school that I had a sweater with my name monogrammed on it: Pamela. I was at a skating rink with some friends, and very shy at that time. A cute older guy passed me and said Hi Pamela! I was so surprised and flattered, and then I looked down and realized the sweater I was wearing...

Now I think it would be cool to find a sweater like that at a thrift store - with some other person's name - and wear it around. Confuse the hell out of people - HA! you think you know me!!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Cake eating cat

I got this photo at an estate sale. Paid nothing for it really. I just loved it. I would never let my cat do such a thing, but it's still a great photo.

Monday, April 26, 2010


When we visited Cutiepie's mom, she made a statement about a blog post I had made in which I mentioned it was the perfect date except that I was with M. And as she said, DUH. I could not for the life of me remember when that was. But finally found it. I love reading the comments too after the fact.

An aside.

Awww...It's really great that we finally did get together.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

You know you're getting old when

You buy the box of new jumbo multigrain rice crispies to make rice crispie cakes with. I figured what the hell. It definitely is not normal, and you cannot expect your child memory filled treat. But, I think it may be good. We'll see in the morning. I ate of course a whole row already and will likely thus be up for the next four hours, but hey, it's all in the name of experimentation.

Poor M was here all weekend. Did I tell you the first two offers both backed out? So the realtor held another open house today. A lowball offer came out of it, so we'll see what happens. He keeps saying not to worry, it'll all work out. And I try to let my worry and anxiety go. Sometimes I'm better at it than others.

M brought the blinds he had gotten (had to be special cut) and Fri night I painted window sills while he rested on the couch. He's working like a dog at work and at home(s) so I didn't blame him at all. I spent two hours on window frames (a total of four windows). Pain in my beehind. I always think that I can get away with one coat, but that is not the case. I had to paint again Saturday, and we put up the blinds today. Lordy.

He of course got much more tangible stuff done than me. One thing I did was wash the dining room ceiling. NASTY. I have to do the living room next. The last people fried all the time. YUCK. Did I tell you of the droplets of grease on the bottom of the window frame? I think I might have, but hey, let me say it again because it was sooo disgusting.

I should go wash the living room now. I had someone call last week who will be in town this week and wants to see the place. I'd at least like to have the living room ceiling painted. In part to hide the patchwork from the hole from when the bathroom was done.

OK, I hope everyone's weekend was great. Gotta go take advantage of this sugar rush!

Thursday, April 22, 2010


How selfish am I? Or can I be? Or rather self-centered? OK, just googled it, and here's a difference explained by C.S. Lewis.

I've had one person drop me for basically taking her for granted repeatedly. At the time (at least 8 years ago?) it had some merit, but not sure about now. As I write that, I think to be honest with myself and you all is what really happened is that she brought the issue up - not dropped me- and though I tried to do what she wanted I either felt like it wasn't enough or I just didn't care enough to really respond. So, we dropped each other maybe. Or I dropped her?

My question to myself, is what am I doing now? Yes, I have to give myself a break because I'm in a new relationship and moving and leaving my job. But I have a good friend who's always been there to help and I try and help her, but I don't think I do enough. I think I take her for granted occasionally (a lot?), and I need to stop and step back and not do that.

Part of my problem is I feel myself disconnecting from this place/these people. But that doesn't mean I can't try and keep my friends. Or friend in this case. Sigh. I'm obsessing and I need to stop and just have a chat.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Speaking of food

Pooch is in love, and chatting with his loved one. Laughed because in part I was eating lunch at the time.

Pooch Cafe

Speaking of food

Pooch is in love, and chatting with his loved one. Laughed because in part I was eating lunch at the time.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


Painting window sills.
First cleaning. Then caulking.
An easy job. HA.

Waking up early
Again. No brain, no gain. Ugh.
Time for some caffeine

Monday, April 19, 2010


M worked hard this weekend. And can sleep apparently anywhere. Well, at least when there's sun involved.

'We' got a lot done. Meaning I feel like he did everything while I provided moral support. Or at least support. I now have electric outlets on the wall by the stove. And now there's no live wire running out of the wall which we used to support the dryer venting tube (!). Those are two big things. Oh, also a front door that doesn't slam open in the wind. I worked on the ceiling in the living room. What else did I do??? jeez.

We did watch Dead Snow - a Norwegian zombie movie. Way to gory for me, but tongue in cheek so everyone else was laughing most of the time. I saw only about half. And I think I was very tired, so didn't get into it as much. But most say it was highly recommended for a gory zombie B movie. Next on the list is Bubba Hotep (Hutep?) - something based on Egyptian times. Gotta google it for the full description. I just heard it was funny/good.

Here's a photo of the kitchen I'm using for renting the place:

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Monday's food?

I have not gotten into the groove with posting food. But here's a few from Monday.

I buy these in bulk from Costco. It's low in calories, has some chocolate in it, and fiber fiber fiber! Gotta stay regular.

OK, so I was PMS-ing and needed some chocolate. I ate way too much of course. It's why I should never buy the big bars. Of course, I got this one for free, so there was nothing I could do about it. ha.

A dish I made that I did not like at all when I first made it. But then I squished it into a small Chinese take out container, and dumped it out upside down, and it looked ever so much better, so I guess tasted better. Tofu, grilled eggplant and tomato with other stuff in it.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Jesus take the wheel

There are so many things happening that at some point I hafta throw up my hands and say - it'll all work out. House selling issues. House renting issues. An issue here, an issue there, everywhere an issue issue... I don't even know where to begin, so I'll begin with the end. In the end, all that matters is that I have someone to spend the rest of my life with whom I know I will be happy. That's huge.

And there it must end because I am so damn tired. Gotta sleep. I will say though, I saw my ex in the gym Monday night. And I didn't really care. I mean of course, sort of, but it didn't really matter. I've moved on, as healthy people are wont to do. I guess I'm healthy?

BTW, I don't think that song should be taken literally like it sounds in the song. They didn't even have automobiles in Jesus' time. I don't think he'd be a very good driver.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

The carnivore's dilemma

I mentioned I was having trouble remembering to take photos. Well, I am. I have been trying to ease into it and just do it when I remember it, even if it isn't every single food item.

Here's my breakfast before flying. (wanted protein, but also wanted french toast. that's homemade strawberry jam btw)

Meat and Potatoes the night before

And an artsy fartsy shot of the grill. I put in WAAAY too much charcoal. And didn't even have marshmallows to roast on it!

Damn, I just realized I didn't take a photo of tonight's dinner. Darn. I smell it though. Lox and bagel and cream cheese and red onion. Whew.

Monday, April 12, 2010

The Chronicles of Elmo

Elmo helps M with the flight planning.

Elmo says a tearful goodbye to Billy (who looks so mad that Elmo is leaving he wants to tear Elmo's eyes out)

Elmo sad to be leaving Billy and excited to meet Cutiepie, so gets caught in the door.

Elmo got the special seat in the car.

Elmo wears his safety belt on the plane. He thought he could have my seat, but he had to move to the back.

Elmo needs to rest after the long trip

Elmo just beat after all his travels. No, it wasn't the tray of funny brownies he ate.

Elmo's new home

Elmo has given up the dirty life and gone to live with his new and bestest friend - Cutiepie. She was very happy to welcome him into her life, as you can see. Tomorrow will show the chronicle of his adventure leaving my house to go to his new home (in part because it's more difficult than I would have thought to remember to take photos of my food!)

Funny story - apparently a person-sized Elmo appeared at a birthday party Cutiepie was at. All the kids were scared. Cutiepie said that Elmo was not supposed to be that big - and though yes, everyone looks smaller on TV, Elmo on the show is much smaller than the adults. So, I can understand the fear.

Friday, April 9, 2010


I went back yesterday and looked at my life around this time in the last 3 years. Amazing what has happened. I also noticed that my writing was much more interesting/entertaining. My goal is to try and get some of that energy back.

But in the meantime, I'm giving myself a week to try an experiment I read about recently in the New York Times. There are several blogs out there in which people are documenting every piece of food they eat in a day. I think I'll try this for a week, and also try not to 'cheat' and eat differently. It'll make for a lot of photos, and you'll know a lot about me in the end.

Something to look forward to!

Thursday, April 8, 2010


It's Thursday! That means, today at least, the powers that be x3 or so talk about my half time possibility. I met with the CEO and Office whateversheis Tuesday and they provided lots of reasons why it would not work, including the time zone issue would make it difficult to participate in meetings. Huh? The example they gave was with the former president who was in the same time zone and it was so difficult to have meetings with her. Um, she was/is a highly influential and busy woman. Even if she were in the same time zone it would have been difficult! Oh, and the fact that in a couple months I might get the job of my dreams and thus they'd have to deal with someone new anyway. Um, that could happen with a full time employee!

So, ultimately I don't care one way or the other. I tried though to argue for it in the meeting, because it would be a good thing to have. though I'm sure I wasn't as convincing/forceful as I could have been, in part because when I say I don't care, I can live with either outcome. I just want a damn outcome!!! Now!!! M has said to me that if I want I could just take the possibility off the table if that would help me keep my sanity. I know he really means it, but yes, it would be good to have the income (to say the least). Speaking of income, I'll work until the last day in May (in part for income, in part because I'll get a free holiday, and in part because we've pushed back the move a little to make life less stressful and so he/we can go visit with his high school friends in June).

It's coming quickly!!!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010


Wish I had something
interesting, exciting
to say, to do. Hey.

These random, scattered
Thoughts, actions, emotions, words
Soon will all add up.

I can't believe it.
Me? American Idol?
Oh, the shame. (sort of)

Tuesday, April 6, 2010


So, do you think circuses are becoming obsolete? We have one coming to town, and I wonder what age group still is excited by the circus. Likely under 5? I was just thinking that in this age of super special effects, the reality of the circus may seem boring to any child over 5. What do you think?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Another Man's Treasure

So, I went dumpster diving Saturday AM. There's a place that every first Saturday of the month they throw away big things. I used to live in that area, which is how I know. My ex used to get upset when I went 'running' and I'd walk back with a huge bookshelf or somesuch item. Which is why I didn't tell M when I went yesterday. Damn baggage. It really does cost to bring it on from an old relationship. I did tell him when I was there, in part because I had just found this chair, and I really wanted to keep it. I also got the plastic patio furniture I wanted, but this was a huge bonus. I love it.

I finished the hallway. Damnation that took a long time. And it reinforces that I really need to suck it up and let someone provide tips on how to paint. Ugh. So, now I decide if I should even paint all the doors/doorframes that I have. I'm tempted to just leave them as is...

I watched the movie Up in the Air last night on DVD. I liked it, but there was one very unreal moment in the film. Did you notice the beeehind of the supposedly late 30's woman that sleeps with him? Amazing beeehind - but so clearly a stunt double butt. How on earth can a late 30's woman have an amazing butt?? Is that even possible? I don't think so, but you could prove me wrong.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Chattin' up the neighbors

So, as it was getting dark I sat on my front step and ate a mango (after semi-unsuccessfully BBQ'ing my back yard). People started coming out of their houses, and I ended up talking with a couple people. Word's gotten out that I'm leaving. People wishing me luck and giving me good and horror stories about neighbors that have rented (the couple with kids who screamed and hit each other, the army officer who was never there, etc.). Thing is, it's tight living even though there's space. The one neighbor talked about the dog next door and how it drove him nuts. To the point where he bought the owners one of those bark collars, and now, amazingly enough the dog does not bark. It's nice - my little section of the street is pretty connected and people do get out. The 4 1/2 year old came up to me and said she was 4 and a half and next year she'd be 5 and a half - different way of counting the years! My 93-yo neighbor asks me if I'm doing the right thing every time I see her. I know she's worried, and I'll do the best I can to get a good tenant. I don't want the neighborhood to hate me, even if I do live across the country!

Meeting with one management company this weekend... so trying to move forward. Hope all have a great weekend!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Doors and windows open

I'm working from home today, woo hoo!. Have doors and windows open, and Billy is asleep on my bed and not bothering me right now.

The reason I stayed home is to get a carpet estimate for my basement, and I added handyman too. Carpet - well, I really want to get an indoor/outdoor with no padding so it can come up if it floods. Home Depot and Lowes do not install without padding, so I had to look elsewhere. From recommendations I found a family-owned business that has been great so far with all my questions. The owner is coming by today so we'll see what he says. It'll be more expensive than the chain stores, but I think worth it.

Handyman, well, my handyman has to work and do so much other stuff (it's M btw), that I hired a guy for a day. He's done stuff at my house before. Good good guy and decently priced I think, though I have no other experience with handymen. Except the free ones that later become your life partner... In any event, he's putting in the molding that's been missing for almost two years in my dining room and kitchen. He's building an enclosure around the electrical box in the basement that we had torn out when I moved in because it was so ugly and not very practical (some triangle weird thing in the corner). And mounting a towel bar/small cabinet over the toilet that I got at Walmart, and mounting my toilet paper holder, and maybe even putting my railing back in my hallway. Soooo excited.

Given such things, I may have to work until the end of May. M and I have still be throwing around how we want to do this. And so I could start renting mid-June or July 1 and it would give us leeway. Found out my COBRA is not so bad as I feared so that's good news too. I still vacillate between renting and selling (there's such doom and gloom forecast for the next year or two!!), but it's really tipping over to renting.

Oh, btw, M got 2 maybe 3 offers on his house! So that's exciting. One was full price, with contingencies of course. So, we'll see how that goes. It's amazing how nice they made it look.

OK, gotta work. Enjoy your day!