Monday, February 14, 2022

Happy VD Day!

 How appropriate that when I check the comments that did not go through they were all about herpes.

In any event, I logged in so I could just say, why do people with weird names think they can shorten my name when I don't shorten theirs?

Just in general a little irritated today. Took care of M for 2 weeks when he was freaking out and had to have surgery. But he's feeling better, so time to get irritated with me.

Sigh. But this time I DON'T REALLY CARE.

But all the guys who I connect with want to be poly. Yeah, tried that. Doesn't work. Even those ethical ones. Or supposedly ethical. 

Love is all around you!  Happy happy joy joy!  Let's end on that good note. :-)

Sunday, January 23, 2022

2022 begins

 Happy 2022!  Wow, time flies. I spent a month back east, helping my sister out by giving stuff away on Craigslist [side note, here in CA people seriously just ask if something's available most of the time rather than explaining why they want it. Maybe it's a NextDoor thing?  Not sure. But in NJ one woman left some chocolate as a thank you, and another guy offered up design services as a trade] and seeing my family and a few friends. Saw my ALS brother twice only, not surprisingly they have had a lot of problems with Covid outbreaks amongst staff, so they kind of shut the place down. I'm glad I was able to be there. I may have gotten my sister into the habit of taking a walk every day, which I hope so. Get out of the house!! I wanted to go to a show in NYC, and even bought a ticket to a cheap one, but then realized I shouldn't because all these people would be coming for Christmas and be nervous about being around me. So I didn't. I figure I supported the arts in some way.

I went on a backpacking trip with just women last weekend. I figured I'd try to make new friends. And there were a couple nice women and it was good to be out. January in the SF area is not too shabby. When it's not raining. Which it would be great if it were.

Right before Christmas I got an email asking if I'd want an extra 20% to help out a program that just got funding.So I said yes. And I started two weeks ago, and was freaking out because it's been a while since I worked full time. But I'm doing ok... so far. It's a great group of people, though very busy.

 OK, I'm starting to get distracted by the radio so I'm going to go.  

But then I remember something. My brother almost died because his vent stopped working. Can you imagine?? It was faulty. And we found out you can't sue if there's no physical harm - emotional trauma is not enough. Sigh.

Tuesday, October 5, 2021

I've been played

I realized yesterday I had been played. At least twice in my life I've fallen for the attention of a man who was providing it for a purpose. I'm making it sound horrible but it's not really. Once was sitting at a bar all by myself at least 7 years ago. Bartender paying attention to me and sort of flirting so I'd either buy another drink or give him a good tip. Forget which I did. And yesterday sea kayaking class, getting the attention of the instructor who was sort of flirting - ish and I felt special. Maybe for a good tip. And had felt really good and oh he might like me. But then saw his instagram and of course he has some young Asian chick by his side. Which, good for him! And he really did nothing wrong. It's just weird to realize I fell for it. I'm a lonely old woman seeking attention. Mostly not, but kind of a little bit yes!

What-ever.  As those kids say. Or used to say.

Tuesday, August 10, 2021

Because I don't want to talk to anyone

 I'm glad I still have this blog sometimes. I can spew out stuff that is in the moment and I don't have to explain or even feel good. I'm turning 55 in a few days and right now I feel I have done nothing of worth in my life, except for the quilts I've made. No lasting relationships and no children. That shouldn't define someone's life, but right now it is. This very moment. It's very sad to me. 

I'll feel better in a little bit, for sure.

Thursday, July 1, 2021

Had to laugh out loud

 Went to the library for the first time in over a year. I had to lol at checkout. The two books I take out: Single on Purpose (self help book) and a romance novel.

And to top it all off today, the pest control guy asked me out!  Nice to get asked out...

Thursday, April 29, 2021

From The Book of Two Ways

 "One of my favorite concepts from Ancient Egypt was kheperu, or manifestations. An individual was much more than just the khat, or body. You were made up of the ib-a heart; a ka soul- a familial legacy; a ba soul - your personality and reputation; shuyez - a shadow; and ren - your name."  Pg 222

Just that there is so much to us. Which is good.

Monday, April 5, 2021

Vegan Oregano Pesto

 I have a ton of oregano out front. I decided a year or two ago to make pesto with it. And tried for the hell of it vegan pesto, with nutritional yeast instead of parmesan.  It was so excellent. Problem was I didn't write down what the recipe was. Yes you can use the basic pesto recipe, but I just tried that and it's not quite as good.

2 c oregano
2 garlic cloves
1/2 tsp salt or so
1/4 c nutritional yeast
1/2 c almonds
about 1/4 c or less olive oil
I know I used almonds last time. Some recipes I looked at now called for pecans. Maybe I'll try a batch with pecans... But still it's good.  Just not quite so delicous as last time. Maybe it's because my yeast is old.