My friend died yesterday. Or the day before, since I rely on emails. She wasn't a close friend - I worked with her a long time ago. There was a group of people who got really close at that time - they used to get together every Thursday to watch Friends. I was climbing then, on Thursday nights, so never got that close to any of them. I feel bad for all of them, who I also only know a little bit except for one.
I was going to write that I tend to be on the periphery when there are groups of people. Then I thought no. Then I thought yes. I have some close close friends, but not groups of people. Which isn't necessarily bad, it's just different.
So, enjoy your life, beginning today.