Another WFMU segue. I listed to Irwin's show on WFMU. He plays a certain genre of music, I'd say, but has a few quirky things he throws in. Like Amanda. Like Jessica Kane.
Jessica Kane does spoken word, at least on that album, and her storytelling is fascinating. I think so at least. I'm her friend on FB, and one thing was very appropriate today, and the other was just really good too. Which was appropriate do you think?
Advice from my mother after someone hurt my feelings:
Mother: Jessica, how many times must I tell you, other people cannot hurt your feelings. Are you just a giant vagina that can be f**ked by everyone?
Mother: Well, then. You're going through a sensitive time. You're alone in the woods, your dog just died, and you’re not thinking clearly. Why else would you go and look for approval for what you're doing in life from someone who is never going to give it to you.
Me: I guess I just don’t like that he thinks that way about me.
Mother: Well, guess what? You can't control what other people think of you. Can he control what you think of him?
Mother: That’s right. So stop looking for standing ovations from other people and look in the mirror. That’s the person you want approval from. And next time you see him, don't tell him anything about you, just talk about things he’s interested in. Talk about Jesus, talk about the mob, talk about some f**king thing, other than you. And give him that aloofness that I know you know how to do so well, after all, you are my daughter
Me: Thank you, Mother.
I went into sephora to get a brush for this foundation that my sister got me to make me look prettier. But when I was in there, I didn’t want to be prettier.
I went into jr music world to buy an itouch.
But once I was there, I didn’t want to buy an itouch.
Then I went into borders books to look at books.
But when I was in there, I didn’t care about books.
But I used their ladies room.
And in there, I saw that I had this black thing in my teeth.
So I took it out.
And I was going to take the ferry back to staten island.
But when I got here,
I didn’t feel like getting on the ferry yet.
So I sat on a bench and listened to these two snot-nosed children stomping on these bell things they have embedded in the ground. And it sounds beautiful. Like music you’d hear in china 300 years ago. And I’m staring across the water at the statue of liberty. And I’m thinking about french people. And I’m thinking about my grandfather’s father who probably had lice on ellis island. And all of it makes me happy.
I am glad I am here.
Moments from now, I will want to be elsewhere, but right now, I’m happy to be here.