How selfish am I? Or can I be? Or rather self-centered? OK, just googled it, and here's a difference explained by C.S. Lewis.
I've had one person drop me for basically taking her for granted repeatedly. At the time (at least 8 years ago?) it had some merit, but not sure about now. As I write that, I think to be honest with myself and you all is what really happened is that she brought the issue up - not dropped me- and though I tried to do what she wanted I either felt like it wasn't enough or I just didn't care enough to really respond. So, we dropped each other maybe. Or I dropped her?
My question to myself, is what am I doing now? Yes, I have to give myself a break because I'm in a new relationship and moving and leaving my job. But I have a good friend who's always been there to help and I try and help her, but I don't think I do enough. I think I take her for granted occasionally (a lot?), and I need to stop and step back and not do that.
Part of my problem is I feel myself disconnecting from this place/these people. But that doesn't mean I can't try and keep my friends. Or friend in this case. Sigh. I'm obsessing and I need to stop and just have a chat.