Wednesday, May 16, 2012

In My Head

The sparring in my head.

- I don't know how to tell a story (verbally at least)
- I have a flat voice
- I'm not good at in-depth  analytic conversations (current events, politics, and the like)
- I'm not that intelligent
- I'm not energetic
- I'm inconsiderate
- I'm needy
- I'm boring
- I'm too cautious
- I live in a bubble
- I'm not bubbly 
- I must work within established norms
- I'm not athletic enough (skiing I go slow and get scared)
- I'm moody
- I'm inconsistent
- I"m a pessimist
- My initial reaction is usually negative

- I'm loyal
- I'm funny
- I'm intelligent
- I'm considerate
- I have led an interesting life
- I take risks
- I am artistic
- I'm athletic

Enough. I have to work.


laura b. said...

You're hard on yourself. I guess that is what people do. I'm glad that some of your 'negatives' reappeared in positive form. And I'm sure you know that a great many of those 'negatives' could easily be seen in a positive light!

silly rabbit said...

I do this too. It depends on my mood which way the pendulum swings. Or maybe my blood sugar.

Tara said...

You're a helluvalot more athletic than I am! I have never even tried to ski and I'm too chicken to do rock climbing.

Anonymous said...

I disagree with many of the items on your first list. Regarding not being able to tell a story and having a flat voice, well, those apply to me too, but it hasn't stopped me from my new(ish) project of writing and performing monologues. So don't despair! And having listened to your radio programme, I don't think your voice is flat. I'd use the word "sedate," and that's definitely not a bad thing.

NoRegrets said...

Laura, I was hearing other voices usually couch what I am in the negative, and I was trying to fight back that they are positive too.

SR, yeah, that's often a case.

Tara,,, someone is always something more than someone else...if you look hard enough, alas.

Yeah Squirrel, I need to find out more about what you are doing. And thank you. Sedate. Hmm... :-)