You may be right

I might indeed be crazy.

OK, so, here's a list of the items that I cannot find in my home that I should have:
- ladle (used a long time ago to make applesauce)
- metal bowl (used to soak my prescription bottles to get rid of my personal information)
- towel (special one that's my gym towel)
- one flip flop
- pajama bottoms (flannel)

So, the first two I have NO idea where they are. I had two ladles and once I asked my roommate if she knew where they were she said she had taken one to work and would bring it back on the morrow...  But the bowl!!! I had it ... and now don't. And who else is there besides me in this house and the cats?

I will admit that the other items could be misplaced.  But it's an indication of my mental state that I think someone is stealing these things. Sometimes I think it's one of my other personalities. Sometimes I think it's my roommate. Other times... I have no idea.

I bet you were excited to have this amazing post from me.

Job update:
- had an interview today for a position. They wrote to me late Sunday night and said they had scheduled me for 8 am today. Then they also left me outside until 8:00. But it went well.
- tomorrow have an interview for a job that's beneath my abilities. So not excited.
- waiting to hear back from a good interview for a one year temp job that could turn into a regular job. It's a little below my abilities but great people and good experience.

I kinda feel like I shouldn't tell people I have had interviews because it looks bad that I don't have a job yet. But in part it takes organizations forever to figure out who they want to hire!!!  And, yes, as a friend said, well, maybe I need to take a look at how I'm interviewing. Go in excited about the job no matter what. It's easier to say no than be unemployed not by choice.

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I just came back from my dinner. I invited myself to it. My original Thanksgiving location was cancelled due to bed bugs.  Poor people. They didn't want to come over here for fear of transferring them. And I appreciated it. And at this Thanksgiving I got a free mini massage!  One person is a masseuse and she always brings her table... so gave most of us a gift. So nice. There are so many things I want to buy when I have a job, and a massage is one of them.

A big realization came for me yesterday. I may actually now be able to date. I'm still contemplating it. But I have been so anti-man because I have never been able to say no, I don't want to go any further, or no, I don't want a long term relationship. What if, just what if, I could enjoy a guy's company and do whatever being really up front that there's no relationship in it. Is that shallow? I am still not sure. But it might be nice. We'll see.

I had so much to write, but now I'm tired and want to go to bed.  Enjoy yourselves!

No vomit zone

So, I called a friend the other day and happened to get her. The first thing she said was 'what's wrong?'  How sad that that's what came out. I'm not 'woe is me-ing' but rather pointing out that I have vomited all over my friends in the past, and even almost perfect strangers!  And it's time to change.

So, trying to be upbeat. Call people when I'm happy. Start touching base when I don't have to vomit. And trying not to vomit all over people when I do have something that makes me sick.

I think that is all.  Except for the sunset above. Heavenly.

Tarot

My new roommate offered to do a Tarot card reading last Friday. It was very very interesting. Not prophetic I don't think, but as I said to her, a basis for thought. Picking out the pieces that made sense to me. And on the flight to go visit M, reading an article about forgiveness. And reading a book started there and finished last night (time of my life by Allison Winn Scotch) which drives home the message of taking responsibility for your own self and listening to yourself.

It actually was a good visit. I was a little apprehensive, a little excited. But we had a good three days together. Hike one day, climbing another. Live music both nights. I got to see his new world and get out of my unemployed one for a few days. He got company and a rope gun, as he said. He paid for the ticket, and I felt a little bad, and likely will give him some money when I get a job.

Which...no job yet. I have an interview on Thursday for a year long temp job.  We'll see how that goes. But right now I have to meet my friend for climbing!

Dream

Changing the bed, I just realized I had a dream in which I had vision correction surgery (impromptu) and out of my left eye anything I viewed was the mirror image (I noticed in with writing). I was wandering around trying to find someone to help me fix it. It was nice to see well with the other eye though. But of course I started getting anxious about having it and what would happen in the future. But it wasn't too bad.

Hmm... gotta think about an interpretation. But now that I think of it, it's really cool that I could see that way in the dream.

Book with a Face

Yesterday I had lunch with a friend at the Book with a Face.  Free lunch!  Woo hoo!  One of the perks of being unemployed. I'm so lucky.

 This is the center of their 'campus'. apparently the lighter and darker grey spell out Hack.

 This is what employees have to do when they're late for work.

 This is ONE of the eating areas.  I had Moroccan food, and a nice salad and a white chocolate mint dessert thing. My friend later showed me one of the snack areas...lordy. SO MUCH FOOD.

THis is just one of the walls inside. There's lot of graffiti art and all sorts of weird things. It's an interesting culture.

(yes, still no work... had a couple of interviews and no job offers.  one person actually responded to my request for feedback on my interview, so we'll see how that goes. it's frustrating. So I"m going to go see music tonight after doing almost nothing today. time flies when you're unemployed)