I need to practice meditation. Or the art of forgetting. I'm going away on vacation for 5 days to relax, and I don't want my creeping feeling of overwhelmingness taking over. Any hints?
- work. things haven't done. will be waiting for me when I get back. too much.
- since I got the go ahead from my lawyer to sign a lease on a place, I wrote to the person that I was going to take an apt. from and said no initially, and it's still available. which is good but:
-> then I have to move in mid April (do I?)
-> hubby and I haven't finished splitting stuff up. haven't even made an appnt. with a mediator
-> I have to pack
-> I have to get my name off the home bills
-> I have to get new cell phone service, alone
-> I won't have friends immediately around and I fear getting into a major funk/depression when I'm alone
-> it'll hit home that we're splitting up, when up until now it's been a little surreal
- I worry about my surviving cat being alone
I'd like to stay with friends, but I know I could become a burden and feel bad about being in people's way. I have two sets of friends/two homes that are open to me, and I've only been staying with one, so I could switch homes. But really I shouldn't do that and should move on, but I wonder if one of the reasons I've been able to survive this whole thing so far is because I have indeed had people around. Crap. I have to figure this out.