Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Breathe

This song has been going through my head for the past several days. Maybe even last week. (Breathe 2 AM, Anna Nalick) I just realized this morning it's because of the refrain. Breathe. Just breathe.

It's amazing how one can survive with so little breath. When stressed/anxious I take such shallow breaths it's amazing. I have to take deep breaths once in a while. Sometimes I have to do it consciously, sometimes I do it unconsciously. Of course, when I do it it sounds like something's wrong, and M is always asking me. But most of the time around him it's just because I need the deep breath.

Of COURSE there's a lot going on.
Did I tell you we're moving to California? Yes
Did I tell you we put our houses on the market? Yes, we did.
Did I tell you I have tons of painting still to do in the house, plus other things?
Did I tell you that while my house might have a tax assessment of a certain amount, I will be lucky to break even when I sell it?
Did I tell you I've gone up to my mom's place twice in the last month and one more time this weekend?
Did I tell you I have to tell my work that I'm leaving - sooner rather than later due to trying to do the right thing?
Did I tell you I have to hint to my mom I might move out west?
Did I tell you I won't have a job when I move? Yes.

Deep breath just occurred.

9 comments:

Tara said...

Wow, certainly lots on your plate. Deep breaths do help when we remember them.

My brother makes fun of me every once in awhile when I take a deep breath around him. He has to mock me. It's his thing.

Churlita said...

Holy cow! That's a lot "did I tell you's". But on the other hand...How exciting.

Mrs. Hairy Woman said...

That is quite the handful.. no wonder you need to breathe.. Hope that it all works out for you in the long run and the move and job will come with time.. Hopefully sooner.. Now Breathe in and Breathe out..

laura b. said...

Oh my goodness...that shallow breathing is killer. I almost always have to make a conscious decision to stop and breathe.

You have lots to do, but a partner to share in the trials and triumphs. This is bound to be an amazing time in your life.

Squirrel said...

I will have to add SF to my list of places to visit this year...

Pamela said...

Brothers are that way. Mock him back!

Churlita - that's a lot, but yes, exciting in a scary way.

Mrs. - we're plugging along. That's all you can do. Thanks for the feedback on the bathroom!

Laura - I'm trying tothink positively like that. Increasing my anti-anxiety will help.

Pamela said...

Crap! I wrote lots of responses to you all, but here's the shortened version:

Tara - mock him back.
Squirrel - come visit! not till the fall at least though.

Susan said...

Wow have I missed a lot...

Sebastien said...

Overload!!! I have to say that certain breathing techniques are fantastic help to take the edge off the stress. I read this book, Being Peace by Thich Nhat Hanh, there was a small section on breathing that was quite informative. Nothing revolutionary, but I like the way he puts things.