Thursday, January 14, 2010

Life, the universe, and doubts

My life:
- Visited my mom last weekend. Took her out to lunch and despite her protests, which I believe were only half hearted, I made her get the veal. She had sort of suggested the place, which I had taken her to before, and then said we could go someplace cheaper. But I knew she wanted to go. And I knew what she wanted to get. And she who eats so little normally ate an entire big salad, some bread, and almost the whole big plate of veal. I guess it was the company. Then when she got home she had a cookie!
- Also saw my nieces, who were quite bored until they decided I was a monster that had to be subdued. Neither of their parents is a rough and tumble person, so they love to do it, usually with my brother. But this time, I was the monster and had both of them on my back and my trying to get them off. It was great exercise and a lot of fun. And we didn't break any heads or furniture. Bonus.
- Also went to the super not so secret FMU party. I felt like a crazed fan - seeing all the dj's I listen to. And took my picture with a couple. Really nice people too. I'm such a geek.

The universe:
- well, water on the moon? earthquakes in Haiti? I can't really expound on either. The latter very sad of course.

The doubts:
- Here I am ready to leave my job without having another job. Will I find another? - Also, I think I'm ready to do another job, but yet I still get into tiffs with my boss, like today, and it sucks. My reaction is not always the best, to be quite generous in my description. How will I be able to make changes in my behavior and be in an 'important' job? Maybe being with M will help - he challenges me on some bad traits. I don't really know quite now how to do it on my own. The deep breaths. The step aside. I don't do it enough. Arg.

6 comments:

Churlita said...

The Haiti earthquake is heartbreaking. I bet you find the perfect job. You deserve that too.

Squirrel said...

You're so good to your mom and your nieces.

I listened to part of the FMU party, but I think I got distracted by other things. Just got my goodie package from their fall fund drive; I like Andy's list of 5 shows Ken won't let him do, which was clearly written before they did the panhandling show right before the fund drive.

Sent money to the Red Cross for Haiti. Hope it helps. Didn't know what else to do.

I can't imagine leaving my job without having another; I just don't have that kind of courage!

Pamela said...

Churlita, do I deserve it?
Squirrel - I try to be. It's never enough though... of course. And re: job, well, I have a safety net. M...

Tara said...

I hope you find a job soon that's exactly what you've been looking for!

I've never had veal Parmesan...Chicken Parmesan, yes.

laura b. said...

Your life sounds like it has been busy and interesting and full of little adventures.

I know you will find the perfect job. And maybe finding a job that you enjoy more, with people you enjoy more, will help with your reaction-y stuff that you don't like.

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