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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I have noone to call
So I have to write out to you all. Weeping in my office. Will these fucking emotions never get stabilized? I'd so rather be happy high all the time. It's not happening any time soon, or even again, since that's why I'm taking the medication.
i haven't experienced what you're going through first hand but i've watched j go through it. whatever you do, make sure you keep your doctor up to date on how you're doing. ~honestly~ 'i'm fine doesn't cut it.' consider yourself hugged. you're a braver woman than you know and you'll get through this.
I'm all about escapism and comfort. Movies on the couch with a comforter. Although, last night I was stressing out about money and my girls were at their dad's house, so I listened to music and cooked a sh*@ ton of food. I guess it all depends on my mood and it changes rapidly, apparently.
k.....I know it sucks. I know that 'medium ground' doesn't look too inviting--having someone trying to help you discover what 'normal' looks and wears like....doesn't necessarily 'feel warm and fuzzy'. I remember screaming "I don't WANNA FREAKING BE NORMAL"
Who wouldn't 'like' being on the ecstatic side of life. But it's a package deal (dangitall...). Really....finding a balance means the loss of something that's miserable and debilitating (for some).
You're doing it--even when you feel like you're not, you are. Inches and seconds, yaknow? You'll get there....
(and DO tell the doc about the degree of 'low' you're having?)
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i haven't experienced what you're going through first hand but i've watched j go through it.
whatever you do, make sure you keep your doctor up to date on how you're doing. ~honestly~ 'i'm fine doesn't cut it.'
consider yourself hugged. you're a braver woman than you know and you'll get through this.
Thanks much. Jeez, I could use a real hug.
Here have some of mine from yesterday
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(too tiny for the word "hug" in there)
Hang in there. You have a lot of friends on blogland and you have people who care about you.
On really bad days, I listen to nothing but Motown. Sometimes it helps.
Ah, Susan, always ready with your cervix... what a woman. thanks!
MRT - i'm hanging by my fingernails at this point. thanks...
Motown... I've never really connected with that music, but I could try again.
Okay you ready???
((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
That big enough for you? :)
Try these songs in this order:
(songs to work out the negativity)
Ball of Confusion (That's What the World Is Today)
Nowhere to Run
The Tears of a Clown
The Tracks of My Tears
(song where you feel a little bit of hope)
Reach Out (I'll Be There)
(songs that get you hoppin')
Mickey's Monkey
Get Ready
Dancing in the Street
Ain't No Mountain High Enough
Then you round it out with Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive."
Thanks much, Tera. Now that's a big hug.
MRT, that's a good playlist. I just need to make it into a mixed cd...
Meatloaf's bat out of hell does something similar for me.
I'm all about escapism and comfort. Movies on the couch with a comforter. Although, last night I was stressing out about money and my girls were at their dad's house, so I listened to music and cooked a sh*@ ton of food. I guess it all depends on my mood and it changes rapidly, apparently.
I'll try and do something like that tonight. Though for me it might mean using my Target gift card to buy something I want, like some bowls...
I hope you get through this .. You are not ALONE .. You have all of us here in Blog world..
(((((((((((HUGS))))))))
Ah yes, I miss the hgihs, too - don't really want to give them up.
Puss
Thanks Mrs. I appreciate it mucho
Puss..and I just have a mild case so they weren't all that high, but I'll still miss them...
Geez, there are days I could (and probably have) written that post. But it does help to get it out there, doesn't it?
*hugshugsandmorehugs*
k.....I know it sucks.
I know that 'medium ground' doesn't look too inviting--having someone trying to help you discover what 'normal' looks and wears like....doesn't necessarily 'feel warm and fuzzy'. I remember screaming "I don't WANNA FREAKING BE NORMAL"
Who wouldn't 'like' being on the ecstatic side of life.
But it's a package deal (dangitall...).
Really....finding a balance means the loss of something that's miserable and debilitating (for some).
You're doing it--even when you feel like you're not, you are.
Inches and seconds, yaknow?
You'll get there....
(and DO tell the doc about the degree of 'low' you're having?)
So, Laura, sorry to hear you could have written that post... want to guest write a post and see if anyone notices?
Mel - I did tell, and we didn't up the meds just yet, in response to all this. I am a very sensitive gal when it comes to meds, appparently.
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