Friday, October 17, 2008

Early Morning Musings

I wake now before the sun comes up. My body likes to wake early if it just does it once on purpose. As I lay there, I realized that part of the grief is giving up on the American Dream. Or my American dream. The husband, house, children thing. How I envisioned my life, or thought it should be. Now I have to develop a new vision. I'm too worn out to do it right now, but something will come.

Obviously I feel a bit better. And life goes on. Always will.

18 comments:

Susan said...

I believe in you and believe it'll all clear up with time.

craig andrew said...

Hello,

I am just starting on my 3rd vision. They seem to be on a 10 year cycle. I tell people that I am an impatient Buddhist; I have no interest in waiting to die before I am reborn into a new life. Anyway, just saying hello.

Have fun, C:)

NoRegrets said...

Susan, thanks for the former, and I'll hope for the latter.

Craig Andrew - big welcome and where the hell did you come from!!!? you have no links on your blog so I can't do my normal detective work...

Churlita said...

I feel like I've lived a hundred lives in just this one. I kind of like all the different views I'm getting. it can be exhausting and scary, but adventures are like that sometimes.

laura b. said...

There is something to be said for letting the American Dream go. You'll find your new vision and it will be all yours.

NoRegrets said...

Hey Craig, forgot to say that that whole impatient Buddhist thing is pretty funny.

yeah, Churlita. It's odd. For someone who likes adventure (me), it still really can take a toll on me.

Laura - yes. Mine. Mine Mine. All Mine.

craig andrew said...

Pretty sneaky, ain't I?? I came from the comments at Melsdream.

NoRegrets said...

I'll have you know I was just at your blog and found it out BEFORE you told me! So my detective powers are indeed great.

Belle - A Beauty livin with her Beast said...

see...this is the second chance many of never have....to make our lives what we want it to be not what it happens to turn out to be.

craig andrew said...

Oh, so now stumbling across someones comment is detecting, is it? C;Pffft!!

WNG said...

Maybe that can beyour new thing, NoR. You could run an online dective agency.

Whatever it ends up being I'm sure it'll be wonderfully right for you. In the meantime you have a wobbly lobster to play with. Who could ask for anything more?

Pamela said...
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NoRegrets said...

Belle, you can always change your life, I believe... There's just some times that it's forced upon you, or you force it upon yourself.

Craig - pfftt back!

WNG - did you know the tail had fallen off? And no superglue will get it back on, so far.

Mel said...

Now now......you two play nice!
;-)



Yaknow...I discovered it was the American dream--not necessarily mine.

It'll find you.....I trust that.....

*hugs*

NoRegrets said...

Thanks Mel...
Oh, we're just joshing. Or is it craiging?

The CEO said...

What Mel said. And, you can still adopt, or do artificial insemination, or ask the guy who helped with the installations in your house.

Mel is the Oracle.

M. Robert Turnage said...

NoR, part of me still hasn't given up on the dream that somehow I will marry both Princess Leia and Olivia Newton-John at the same time.

You seem to have a good head on your shoulders and solid feet on the ground. It won't be easy, but I am sure you can make it happen.

NoRegrets said...

Monty, well, yes, I could have a baby with one of them, but likely not marry any of them. Absolutely not.

MRT, you must first convert to Mormonism. Then it will all come true, I swear. And thanks. I've shown you a little bit of what's between the head and feet - nasty white bruised legs...