Yesterday I biked back to the 'hood despite feeling like crap from a migrane. I've gotten comfortable enough that I don't wear baggy clothes over my biking stuff. Well, I'm going back to the baggy clothes.
I arrived at the gate and stopped to open it. The guy hanging out of the red 4x4 passenger side called to me. It took me 3 tries to understand what he was saying, but he basically asked me if I had a boyfriend. I was too sick to be clever, and didn't want to be rude because who knows who is who there, so I answered. We had a little back and forth, and he felt comfortable enough to come out of the car and stand beside the fence. He asked how old I was, and I asked him how old he was - 28. I just laughed - I'm too old for you! And wanted to shake my finger at him and tell him to respect his elders and take off the friggin sunglasses when he's talking to me.
I told him I'm 41, and he told me I looked good, so that's something. He wanted to take me out to dinner, go biking with me, etc. As we're speaking a few older, respectable men came out of the store next door and looked at me disapprovingly even though I said hello with a smile. Because I'm standing there practically naked talking to this young'n. I thanked the young'n for the offer and said no thank you, and went inside, him staring at my booty as I left.
So, I guess there's no need to stalk the prey. Ha. I've been looking at craigslist and even signed up yesterday for fitnesssingles.com (it was a link that appeared on my map of who visits my blog) and realized how not ready I am for all that crap. I had even written to a guy on craigslist (no, not the 22 year old, a real one) and said I'm not ready for a relationship but I'm writing anyway, and referred him to my blog. [side note: I wonder what a guy would think of me from my blog... probably scared shitless to interact with this crazy pervert...] Not quite sure why I'm doing it - I guess gauging where I am emotionally, trying to see that there ARE guys out there I'd be interested in dating, etc.
I am what I am. Especially right now. My view is inward and that's mainly what I write about given everything that's going on. Life will move forward.