I'm going to have to have a writing post. I took a photo of cutiepie this morning so I could show you the sweetheart that calls me 'ma', but I can't download them off my camera at work. So, instead I'll share something I found yesterday:
There's a life out there that I want and I can almost define it. It will be mine because I believe in myself and I can make it happen.
Repeat twenty times a day. Wait. Pray.
It was at the top of a spewing I had written one day at work and saved in my personal files. When I was agonizing about my life and my husband, and feeling helpless but not quite helpless. What I had written in the letter was 'There's a life out there that I want and I can almost define it. I don't believe in myself enough to make it happen.' And I think after a therapy session, it was suggested I change it to the above. I at least wrote it down. I didn't say it 20 times a day, but I should have. But I got there eventually.
Now I need to define the new life I want. I have started. It's a lot of work and I was feeling so overwhelmed about it yesterday. But today is a new day, and am trying to take it one step at a time.