Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Quick and Sweaty Update

- I had the home inspection on Friday. It went well, though it was damn hot. The place has stuff wrong with it, but nothing so major that I can't buy it. So that's good, but I'm scared to death. To be poor. To have such a commitment.
- My job is sort of in upheaval mode right now. How petrified was I when my boss said yesterday she wanted to go for a walk with me outside on one of the hottest days of the year? I just looked at her and said, I'm not being fired am I? I had to pee before going on the walk and it was the worst couple minutes in a while, imagining every possible horrible scenario. I managed to get myself under control without slapping myself in the face, which is almost what I needed. When I hysterically cried to a friend on the phone after the walk, she just repeated over and over that they can't fire me and that I need to fake excitement about the job for a while. So, I guess I will be a faker in the future. How's this for a statement from her - you have moments of brilliance but you're inconsistent, likely because life events have gotten in the way.
- One of the people I went climbing with this weekend was my husband. He climbed mainly with a friend of mine. The heat got to me and at one point I just started crying because I wasn't his climbing partner any more. He saw me and asked what was wrong and I told him, and he said 'I didn't know you liked climbing with me that much.' which wasn't really the point, but hey, that's ok. I need him to see sometimes that it's not easy for me.

11 comments:

WNG said...

It's a huge change, of course it isn't going to be easy, but you're doing what's right for you. So you'll fix your house and I'll bring you vodka. We'll have fish tacos and life will move on :)

Susan said...

I'm not in on the fish tacos but I'll bring tequila!

The climbing thing broke my heart a bit.

NoRegrets said...

Aw, WNG, I was so hoping you'd say 'we'll' fix your house. :-)

Hmmm... tequila and vodka in the same house. Won't a civil war start?

Sorry to break your heart a bit.

Tara said...

I'm glad that the things that need to get fixed in the house are minor. Experience has taught my family and I to never use the phrase "All I have to do is fix this..." or "That'll be easy!" Don't say those types of phrases out loud. They can jinx.

Churlita said...

I hate those little heartbreaks you have along the way until you get over your ex. It's such a process, but the good thing is, it gets easier and easier with time.

heather said...

i'm with tara, don't tell your house she needs fixing. just offer her a makeover. all girls like makeovers.

it sucks leaving someone you still love and like. (~not~ the same thing at all!) it's so much easier when you can hate them. or at least be pissed off at them.

((hugs))

evil-e said...

You remind me of my girlfriend sometimes. She over thinks situations to the point of anxiety and then cannot come back off the worry once things have cleared.

The CEO said...

I'm convinced that given all the crap that has happened to you recently, that you often lose sight of how excellent you REALLY are. It's a shame. Because you really are a cut above the vast majority of people I have run into out there.

NoRegrets said...

Tara/Heather. I'll be very quiet when I am around the new place so she won't get upset. Good idea.

Churlita, I know. At one point in my life I would have avoided the process, but I'm trying to ride the horrible roller coaster and hang on...

Heather, yes, it sucks. When he's so nice sometimes I wonder why the hell I'm doing this.

Evile-I'll take that as a compliment since you like your girlfriend so much. :-)

CEO, didn't I tell you that some of my hobbies include tearing wings off of flies, putting out antifreeze for stray cats, giving homeless people unopenable pistachio nuts, etc? :-) But thank you. I know I'm a good person, most of the time.

Tera said...

Wow NoR you're in emotional turmoil right now and I definitely know the feeling! This may have just inspired my next post.

P.S. Don't you just hate it when you have to slap yourself in the face?!

NoRegrets said...

Ohhh how I love to be an inspiration! Yeah, turmoil is a good word.
I kinda like the slap... ;-)